Uhg

Day 59 here, I still haven't been able to get ahold of the doc.

Tomorrow Levi has an appointment at the hospital, I will be going with him so I can go and talk with the receptionest. I would have done this sooner, but the hospital is a 45 minute drive on a good day. We have decided that If I'm not pregnant by June, we will take a break until the new year. We will moving sometime in the early summer of 2013 and I don't want to have the added stress of have a tiny baby or being in my 3rd trimester. If we do have to take the break, I plan on losing as much weight as possible to see if that is one of the reasons I am having issues. 

It's been a hard week for me trying to come with terms that this is going to be really hard. I knew it was going to be, but I thought that I would be lucky and have it only take a few tries like with a lot of people I know.  I mean, I have know about my PCOS for years so I had a head start compared to a lot of women who only find out about it because of their inability to conceive. 

I keep trying to remind myself that I am young and my time will come, I pray for the patience and faith of Rachel, Sarah, Hannah, Elizabeth, and Samson's mother. I try to take comfort in knowing that I am not alone in this struggle, but it's still really hard.

Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.