Just keep swimming

I went with Levi to his appointment today so I could see if I could talk to my obgyn. She wasn't available at the time, but she did give me a call back(finally). She told me to start my clomid and to go get my blood drawn in 16 days to see if I ovulated. If I don't I have to be referred to yet another person. 

We will get Levi's results tomorrow sometime, be praying for good news.

Uhg

Day 59 here, I still haven't been able to get ahold of the doc.

Tomorrow Levi has an appointment at the hospital, I will be going with him so I can go and talk with the receptionest. I would have done this sooner, but the hospital is a 45 minute drive on a good day. We have decided that If I'm not pregnant by June, we will take a break until the new year. We will moving sometime in the early summer of 2013 and I don't want to have the added stress of have a tiny baby or being in my 3rd trimester. If we do have to take the break, I plan on losing as much weight as possible to see if that is one of the reasons I am having issues. 

It's been a hard week for me trying to come with terms that this is going to be really hard. I knew it was going to be, but I thought that I would be lucky and have it only take a few tries like with a lot of people I know.  I mean, I have know about my PCOS for years so I had a head start compared to a lot of women who only find out about it because of their inability to conceive. 

I keep trying to remind myself that I am young and my time will come, I pray for the patience and faith of Rachel, Sarah, Hannah, Elizabeth, and Samson's mother. I try to take comfort in knowing that I am not alone in this struggle, but it's still really hard.

Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

TTC update

I'm on cycle day 46 without any positive pregnancy tests or a visit from Aunt Flow.  I have been taking my basal temps this whole month and it has not detected ovulation. I have been trying to get a hold of my OBGYN to see what the next step is. I will update when I know more.

Spring is here!

Now that it is warm enough to be on the porch for more than 2 minutes, We got a grill! 

The big boys had a little water fight

We went up to DC to be part of the 100th Cherry Blossom Festival  

Levi being a dork 

Early Morning Visitor

At about 6:30 this morning Titus had to go out, so Levi got up to take him out ant I went to the bathroom. And low and behold, Aunt Flow came for her visit. I'm torn about her visit. On one hand, I can do more accurate calculations for this month, but on the other, it means no Halloween baby.  

So this month has some goals.

1. only one cup of coffee/tea a day

2. walking AT LEAST 30 mins everyday.

3.not to obsess over every little detail. 

4. and maybe cut back on sugar.

Ash Wednesday

According to the gospel, Jesus spent 40 days fasting in the desert before the beginning of his Ministry, during which he was greatly tempted by Satan.Ash Wednesday marks the beginning of this 40-day  period of prayer and fasting.

This story really starts when Jesus goes to see his cousin John the Baptist to be baptized. In Matthew 3:14 John is confussed and is trying to get Jesus to baptize him not the other way around. But Jesus says, 

“Let it be so now; it is proper for us to do this to fulfill all righteousness.” Then John consented.

And a voice from heaven said, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.” Matthew 3:15 and 17

 The devil said to him, “If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread.”  Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, left the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness, where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry. Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone.’” Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God and serve him only.’” The devil led him to Jerusalem and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down from here. For it is written: The devil led him up to a high place and showed him in an instant all the kingdoms of the world. And he said to him, “I will give you all their authority and splendor; it has been given to me, and I can give it to anyone I want to. If you worship me, it will all be yours.” “‘He will command his angels concerning you to guard you carefully;they will lift you up in their hands,  Jesus answered, “It is said: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’”so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.’”When the devil had finished all this tempting, he left him until an opportune time. Luke 4:1-13

It is comforting to know that Jesus made his proclamation of faith by being baptized and then was tempted in many of the same ways we are. We too need to be reborn, and then we are tested.

 Starting today, Ash Wednesday, a lot of people will be "giving" something up for lent. This is supposed to prepare our hearts for Easter and all the significance and promise that that Sunday holds. 

However some people play it safe and do something that really isn't all that hard to give up. The whole point of this is to pass over something that has its claws caged around us and is holding us back from our time with our Abba. It's supposed to be something that truly makes you think and hurt. 

This year I'm doing two things, food not made in my house, and secular music. I decided on the food because I find myself getting little things that I don't really need(like ice cream shakes or twix) Or saying, you know what, the dollar menu at McD's is sounding good. 

And secular music, I find that most songs now a days have no relevance to what I need to be hearing. I'm not mad at my boyfriend, I don't have a broken heart, and I don't need to listen to all the innuendos and foul language. I feel like when I listen to the radio I'm just filling my head with things that have no place there, yet I can't stop listening. 

My prayer for everyone who is participating in Lent, is that they really pray about what they are giving up. This is not a fad. You won't get anything out of it if your heart is not in it. 

Short little treck

Yesterday we headed out to Prince william for the first time in a while. It was warmish and hadn't raind in a day so we were hoping it wouldn't be too muddy. 

We recently bought Titus a Halti, he is still getting used to it 

We hiked down to the "river"  but it was a little chilly to stick our toes in like we did last time

There was a TON of fallen trees 

Levi was trying to convince Titus to go for a swim.

We are the bad people who let our dog off leash. He is too afraid of everything to go more than 5 feet from us.

our attempt at a group shoot.

take 2 

getting some love

I love this bridge, its one of many in this park.

Titus only put his toes in, I think we scared him when we dropped in over his head when he was little.